So today is finally coming to an end, and what an unexpected and fun day it was. On the whim I decided to join my sister while she went to a free journalism workshop here at our local library, I can count how many life changing experiences I have had on my one hand…and this would definitely be one of them. Today was such a defining moment for me as a writer, it was like the teacher switched on the light and in an instant any dark thoughts I ever had about me being a writer was gone. And to think I laughed at my sister for trying to sign up for all these free activities at all the libraries here in Pittsburgh, now I can’t wait to return next week and I hope it continues for the whole summer and not just the next two days that they have scheduled.
I was so touched and inspired by this workshop that I was almost brought to tears. The teacher shared so much insight into what it means to be a writer/journalist that it would take me pages upon pages to actually describe here on my blog. So I will share my favorites…
- Get It On Paper…
- Go with what’s in your heart…
- Honor whatever it is that you write…
We also discuss healing in writing, but that’s just too deep for me to even get into at this moment. All I can say is that today May 7, 2012 I now know that I am supposed to be a writer, that I am to continue to tell my story and by doing so I am indeed doing what’s best for me. The even crazier part is that I was in the middle of writing a blog post discussing how I was truly ready to follow my dream…and along came this opportunity to attend a workshop that only a few minutes I had no idea my sister had signed up for. Not only did I share my writing for the first time out loud, but it was also in front of complete strangers. I don’t know, I’m just on such a natural high from this evening that I can’t wait to go back, today has been such a blessing…it was definitely something that I needed.
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Hey Yinz Guys! So I know I haven’t been on here in awhile…with that being said, I decided to set some vlogging goals that I will like to achieve over the summer. You know I have this nice ass camera it’s about time I really start putting it to use. So I made a vlog describing all my goals I have for my vlogging channel…but if you’re at work or don’t feel like watching a video I listed all the goals below the video as well…
Summer Vlogging Goals for 2013:
- Going Back To School
- Dating Chronicles
- Car Searching
- Apartment Hunting
- Exercising/Getting Healthy
- Life Lessons I’ve Learned
- Makeup/Hair/Product/Monthly Subscription Reviews(still questionable)
- TV Show Recaps(maybe)
So yeah, I hope yinz guys continue to check out my blog and vlog! Thanks for tuning in and remember your #3Ps(more on that later)
Bye Yinz Guys!
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So for March 2013, I’ve decided to start what I call the “No Merch(andise) March”. Basically that means that I won’t be buying any unnecessary things, like clothes, shoes, bags, and makeup. My spending habits so far have been out of hand, so this was a way for me to curve it before my vacation in April. So I’m hoping I don’t give into my shopping addiction…please let the saving gods be with me this month lol!
So what are some ways you save? Let me know in the comment section!
Check back for updates here and on my YouTube channel
Ok Bye Yinz Guys!
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I promise my vlogs will start having some type of direction…one day!
WHOA…so today marks the 2nd month of the New Year…this also happens to be my birthday month (February)! Is it just me or is 2013 going by faster than 2012? I can’t believe we are already one month down in the New Year, and in 12 days I will be 28! Where did the time go? It’s definitely a blessing to be able to see another New Year and another birthday…especially when I have lost a lot of friends in the past few years…friends who’ll never get to see another birthday or celebrate another new year. So with that said, just like everyone else I want to start off 2013 on the “Good Foot” and leave the past in the past and embrace what the future has to offer.
So far…it’s been going very well, and already I have learned new lessons. Like not allowing myself to dwell on things I can’t change or didn’t go my way. Recently I have allowed myself to step away from my on again/off again relationship with my ex. If you know me or even follow me on Twitter then you know how treacherous that relationship has been for the past few years. Don’t get me wrong, my ex is a good guy…but we as a couple couldn’t work out. Half being my fault, and half being his fault…so with all that being said, I am glad that I have finally got over that hump and have picked up and moved on.
And like they say when one door closes, another one opens, and I am happy to say I am starting something new with a new guy, I like to refer to him as “Mister” lol. But so far our journey is going down the right path. It’s nice to have someone who is so kind and patient with me because I can be a lot to handle. Even though he’s been in my life for a short period of time he makes me very happy…but enough with the lovey dovey stuff lol.
This year, if there is one goal I set for myself, it is to get rid of old habits, old doubts and old regrets and allow good things to happen to me without second guessing myself. I just re-applied for school, I am finally starting to get a handle on things at the new job…and if I’m lucky a new car is in the near future. I also hope to try to blog more, as of recently I have fallen back in love with writing and even reading…which is crazy because I can’t remember the last time I read a book and actually finished it. I’m also hopping to add new features on the blog, like more vlogs and reviews on some of my favorite things.
But yeah, that’s really all I have to say for now…its best I start getting ready for the day ahead. So now that you know how I plan on enhancing my life in 2013…what are some things you plan on letting go of and allowing to happen for you in 2013?
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So like how fast did 2012 go by…like I can’t believe it’s already 2013. And next month I’ll be 28…yeah I’m not ready for that lol! But I’m super excited for this year. March I’m going to SXSW…my cousins wedding is this summer in Mexico and maybe…just maybe I’ll take my 1st trip out of the country this year as well.
Oh and did I mention new job since November! Hopefully I can stick it out here. Back to school in the summer(fingers crossed). And as far as my love life…well so far it’s the same’ol same’ol!
So here’s to 2013 being just as Fly and Bright as 2012! #DoBetter2013
So if you are a regular reader of my blog, Tumblr, Instagram and definitely my Twitter account or maybe even all four of them…then you are very aware that I am very single. It’s probably one of the things I complain most about. For this…I am sorry, but I can’t help it…I am a relationship type of gal!
I have been involved in my share of crappy relationships, and now that I am 27 and soon to be 28 in like 4 short months I am SOOOO ready to find a nice man to settle down with. I graduated from high school in 2004, and since then I have seen at least 5 or 6 classmates, teammates and people I grow up with get hitched, and a few even start their own little families. Then there’s me *womp womp*, I can’t even really say that I have been in a real serious relationship. Yes there was the proposal via text from my on again off again then ex boyfriend while he was in the military…but that was short lived due to the fact that he thought he impregnated a young woman while he was stationed in Cali…yes I have horrible taste in men. But back to what I was saying, I have no idea what it means to be in a grown-up relationship. You know like when the relationship doesn’t have to be a secret…or if date night doesn’t always consist of sitting on the couch watching Netflix and then having your brains bang out only to do it all over the next day. It’s also the type where you both equally exchange gifts of gratitude and “just because”…and your birthday is not a negotiable event. I long for the day when I can share mushy pictures of me and my guy on Instagram and change my Facebook relationship status to “Courtney Lynn Keeton is in a relationship with Seriously A. Guy” and the A is for AWESOM…until then I continue to keep kissing a bunch of frogs that just turn into nothing but even bigger toads. And when I do think that I may have something that resembles a relationship it blows up on me, and I find myself being the only one with a face full of shit.
After things constantly not going my way, I seriously had to pause for a minute and ask myself “Why do I keep ending up butt hurt over horrible horrible guys?” “Why am I constantly getting lied to and cheated on?” and the worst thing I ever questioned was “Maybe I’m not capable of being loved…MAYBE IT’S ME?” Now don’t get me wrong…the “Maybe it’s me” question is a very plausible question to ask oneself, but in this scenario its not. What has happened is that I’ve allowed all of these negative relationships to cause me to question if I deserved to be with someone who wanted to see and make me happy. Like I seriously started to feel that I can’t be loved, and for god sakes that’s a horrible way to go thru life…feeling like you are unworthy of love. So if you’re reading this and you happen to be feeling this way…STOP IT RIGHT FUCKING NOW!!!! Each and every one of else is worthy of being love…we just have to stop giving ourselves to people who have no real intentions or just plain don’t want to love us or even for a matter of fact like us.
If you’re anything like me and my girls, we are VERY giving, so giving it’s to a fault. We seem to have this mindset that if we give this and give that he’ll see how awesome we are and love us right…but we always end up WRONG AS FUCK! What happens is said dude ends up with all these awesome gifts from us, and when I say gifts I don’t mean only material or tangible gifts…I mean gifts as in just US period as a whole. We give them all this emotional support, mental support, spiritual support, sometimes financial support and if you’re like me you even give them great freak nasty ass sex…but they still aren’t happy and end up leaving or going off to “figure out what it is that I want” right? Well when this usually happens and I go complain to my mom about it… and you know what she always tells me, she says “When will you get it Courtney, these guys that you seem to get so hurt over…never really liked you! You’re an awesome girl, and make a hell of a girlfriend…just not for him.” So you see it doesn’t matter how much you do for someone…if he doesn’t like you…he doesn’t like you. So now that I’ve said that, I want to say this…IT’S NOT YOU…it’s him. And it always doesn’t have to just be that he doesn’t like you, it can also be that he just too damn immature and can’t fucking handle all this good shit you’re throwing his way…and when I say throwing I don’t just mean the box(LOL). Some guys just aren’t ready for it, and yes it sucks when he seems to be all READY with the next girl…and in that case…it was you, but not in the YOU as in “You can’t be loved” you…it was more of what I said earlier with the whole he just doesn’t like you like that statement…if that makes any sense. AND THAT’S OK…what’s not ok is allowing him and any other crappy guys to bring you down and cause you to question your ability to be love. With that said…
I don’t know everything, I don’t want to sit here and act like I know all the answers…and I’m not saying that this blog post holds weight for everyone…but it does for me. But what do I know, I’m a 27 year old single black female who’s just reflecting on past mistakes and finally starting to get it. That’s All!