When I like someone it’s not hard to tell, I’ve always had a hard time hiding how I feel…especially when it involves someone from the opposite sex. I also don’t like depriving myself of something or someone that I want. I also was never good at playing hard to get growing up either. I’ve always been a “WANT WHAT I WANT WHEN I WANT IT” type of person. My mother always told me that being this way was going to bite me in the ass if I didn’t change…and eventually it did…but not enough.
Not until recently (like two days ago, but that’s beside the point), did I start to change my “WWIWWIWI” attitude. Well really not in every aspect of my life…more like in my love life. See there’s been this guy that I’ve been talking to for the last couple of months, and we spent a somewhat fun weekend together back in December…and even though we had a little argument…I thought things were going somewhat well.
But as of lately I’m not feeling like we’re getting any closer, I haven’t learned anything new about him…nor has he made the effort to learn anymore about me. Also I’m starting to notice that I’m usually the first one to initiate communication, which as of lately has only been thru text and BBM. So the last two days I decided that I wasn’t going to be the first to text or BBM…and I know 2 days is really nothing…but for me it’s pretty good. See I usually hound people until they talk to me…especially if I miss their presence. But what if they don’t miss me? My mom use to always say to me “Let him miss you…you don’t always have to be available Courtney” which is so true.
Like why do I always have to be around, why do I always have to make sure they know I’m here…why can’t I let him come to me? And that doesn’t just go for guys, that also goes for suppose “friends” as well. I’m also starting to notice that a certain “bestie” of mine has also been distant as well…even after my several attempts to contact them. I DON’T KNOW…maybe it’s me…maybe I need to take some time and step away from everyone and evaluate what I’m doing wrong.
So like my mom says “If they miss you…they’ll come to you”.
Will they miss me is the question…