Playing The Victim…



So I had a little twitter disagreement much earlier today…yes I know lame, but it still was a little bothersome for me. I was told that I like to play the victim, which is funny to me. Because playing the victim would be continuously allowing something harmful to happen or affect me and not change or move away from the problem. At least that is how I see it.

Yeah to some a few jokes here and there are funny, but when it starts to get malicious is where I have to draw the line. I’ve stated before in a previous post that I don’t understand why people go out of their way to bring down other people…especially people that they don’t know. And what may be funny and harmless to you may not be to someone else. When I joined Twitter, I planned on having a fun experience with it. I seen it as a way to connect with people I may have otherwise never had the chance to meet. But as of recently it has turned into a “Who can get the most laughs by saying something mean”…but because that’s not me I usually just sit back and do my own thing or just log off.

Now I like to joke around, and I can even laugh at some jokes about myself, and I have. But I have my limits, and I’m allowed to voice those limits and express how I feel. I am not a little ass girl, and I’m not afraid to say when I don’t like something.  So I unfollowed people, just to get it off my timeline…BIG DEAL!

And the fact, that I unfollowed people who I don’t know in real life felt the need to make such a big deal about it is beyond me. When I did it I was mad, angry and hurt…because like I said I joined twitter to have fun, not to be bombarded with negative comments. And really it was one person that I wanted to unfollow, because it always seemed that whenever I posted something he had something negative to say, but then after a few others chimed in…I just say “Whatever” and unfollowed everyone who put their  2 cents in, made a rude comment or RT’d something.  I planned on following a few people back, but that wasn’t going to be until everything settled down…cause like I said I was upset…and I didn’t want to see any negative comments at that time.

But it seems like as soon as I unfollwed people, everyone was up in arms and had to make this HUGE announcement that I unfollowed them…and the rapture came…and how they stuck up for me…and how I’m a black rat…and how they always compliment me and blah blah blah. I don’t ask for compliments…I don’t need the compliments.

Really I didn’t think it would be that big of a deal, like I told one person I just wanted to be left alone. And I mean really if certain people were really worried about how I was, they have my number, email address and facebook…there’s no need to confront me on twitter or try to give me a lesson on self-love for the whole world to see. That’s you just looking for a show, because if people really cared, they would have used a more personal approach.

“Maybe she needs to talk to somebody…I don’t know but I hope she’s ok”…like really…do you?

Like I felt it would be stupid to just keep following people who were making me upset. In real life if something is bothering you, you voice your opinion and if you can, you move away from the problem. So why wouldn’t I do the same thing now.  

BUT I DON’T KNOW! A bunch of  people think the whole thing is dumb and pointless…but I’m an emotional person and yeah I may get upset about things…but that’s ok because I’m allowed to. It’s ok to say that you don’t like something or to express how you feel and go thru the emotions. I owe no one an apology for that.

I am goofy, a horrible speller, forgetful, lazy and sometimes soft …But a victim I am not. And self love…I have A LOT of it, believe me. But that doesn’t change the fact that nasty things still hurt my feelings. But like I said it was really one person that I wanted to unfollow…I did…and that’s it.

So yeah…I just wanted to get that off my chest…for my own sake…because that’s what I do!

I just wanted to get my point across and I figured the best place to do it was on my blog because I didn’t feel I could properly do it while on twitter and watching TV.

My rant is over now! I shall speak of it no more…

Good Day!

SN: I found the GIF on this site that did a post on ANTM…I’m not a huge fan but I actually watched the season that was blogged about. Real tears were had. If you click on the GIF it will take you to the post!


Author: Courtney Lynn

Hello, my name is Courtney...but I prefer to go by my first and middle name Courtney real reason. Most people call me Courtney. I'm 30'ish and currently reside in Pittsburgh, PA. I have had many blogs, but I started THIS blog as a way to talk about myself and my DAILY routine....which as of lately has consit of me trying to do whatever it is that makes me happy! So yeah, I hope this blog brings some type of entertainment to whoever decides to read it.

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