And guess what…that’s ok. I spent a lot of my life trying to make sure people liked me. I mean I have always been naturally caring and nice to people because even as a little girl I strongly believed in treating people the way I wanted to be treated. But there have been a few times that I have gone above and beyond to make people like me. And now as I’ve grown and continue to grow older I look back at these moments and think “FOR WHY” lol.
9 times out of 10 whoever it was had no real reason to dislike me, and if they did they never brought it to my attention, so it obviously wasn’t that big of a deal. Now that may sound dismissive but I’ve never been one to hold my tongue when I felt mistreated and I’ve always been open to being told when I’ve hurt someone, but I digress.
I also know my personality isn’t for everyone. I’m very high strung, anxious, hopeful and sometimes naive. I see the best in the wrong people, and with the right people I fear that they might turn around and hurt me…or even worse leave me (which can make dating me really hard). I hate endings even when it’s for the best and I fear new beginnings even when it’s for the better. I’m emotional and cold all at the same time. I have a hard time opening up and then there’s days I can’t stop talking. I fight hard and love even harder…but at the end of the day all of these things make me the me I am.
So it’s no surprise that I will come across people that aren’t here for that…and that’s totally fine. Now I wasn’t always ok with not being accepted, and in all honestly I use to really be hurt by it. I couldn’t understand why some girl wouldn’t want to be friends with me or why some guy wouldn’t want to date me. I use to spend days over analyzing my actions and trying to figure out the exact moment I turned them off from me so I could either fix it or never do it again. But really all that did was make me try and become someone I wasn’t. It wasn’t until my mid to late 20’s did I actually start to be ok with people not accepting who I was.
Not everyone is going to like you, not everyone is going like the decisions you make, not everyone is going to accept you…and that’s ok. They don’t matter, what matters is that you are being the best you that you can be…and I’m totally aware of how cliche that sounds but it’s the truth. If you spend your life trying to get people to accept you, you’re doing nothing but wasting your time and possibly missing out out on lasting friendships and relationships with the right people.
So say it with me people… “I AM NOT FOR EVERYONE…AND THAT’S OK.” lol.
Peace and Happy Friday,