Hey Yinz Guys…can you believe we’re already in our 5th month of 2018? Crazy right? I feel like this year is flying by. And now that it’s May and the sun has FINALLY decided to join us, it’s just a matter of weeks before I’m out here being Summertime Fine yall. So with that being said, I thought I would share my Summer 2018 Goals here. This is going to be a very adventurous summer for me, I’m going to be doing a lot of traveling and I will also be taking a lot of chances this summer as well when it comes to heading into a different career path. But first I should share some good news…I now work for ULTA Beauty as a Beauty Advisor. I shared the exciting news on my Instagram last month, I’m so excited for this opportunity because I know I’m even one step closer to going to school for my Esthetician License. Yes, you heard that right, I plan on going to school to gain my esthetician certificate than to test for my license so I can start my career as an Esthetician and hopefully work in a spa and just go from there. Continue reading “Summer 2018 Goals…”
Good Morning Yinz Guys and Happy Monday! How was your weekend? Mine was pretty chill. Today for Mental Health Monday I want to hit you guys with a few facts when it comes to mental health and who suffers from it. One of the things that have helped me get through my day to day when it comes to dealing with my mental health is knowing that I’m not the only person who is going through these things. And so I thought I would share some stats that my therapist shared with me a few weekends ago about who is dealing with mental health, she originally gave it to me to help with explaining my mental health status and what they can do to help. So here are some facts…(stats were pulled directly from the National Alliance on Mental Illness aka NAMI website here.) Continue reading “Mental Health Monday: The Facts…You Are Not Alone”
***Good Morning Yinz Guys! This past Monday I introduced one of the many new series I want to bring to this hear blog called “Mental Health Monday” if you haven’t read it yet you can read it here. The second series I want to introduce is what I call “Feel Good Friday’s” where I will share post that are motivational. It may be something I’ve written up myself or a quote I found. Either way, I want to use Friday’s as a way to send good vibes to Yinz Guys so we can start the weekend on a good note. I hope you enjoy.***
You are more than your shortcomings and downfalls. You are more than the negative things people have to say about you and your mistakes. You are more than Your diagnoses and your illness. You are more than your past and who you use to be. You are more than that job you hate, and you are more than the lack of money you have. You are more than your degrees or lack of degrees. You are more than your relationship status and you are more than who you have dated. Continue reading “Feel Good Friday’s: You Are More Than Your Short Comings”
Mental Health Monday: Over-Explaining
***This is my first post for a new blog series I will be calling Mental Health Monday where I share my journey to healthier mental health. I hope you not only enjoy these post but take something as well.***
I have a horrible habit of over-explaining and trying to force people to understand what I’m trying to say. Especially when it comes to the men I’ve dated. So what is I trying to make sure there is no miscommunication or misunderstanding on how I feel, comes off as me being crazy. I’m not sure why or when exactly i started being like this, but recently it was brought to my attention and well I was taken aback at the thought of someone thinking I’m crazy. Now…don’t get wrong I can be very passionate when it comes to my relationships, in the sense, I put my all into it. Which is probably why I find myself over explaining my thoughts and feelings, instead of maybe taking a step back and seeing if that’s what he wants to hear at that moment. I’m sure this stems from my fear of breakup/being dropped like I have been so many times. So I feel like, if he knows exactly how much I care about him or how much something affects me…he’ll then understand and this will all end well. I never take into consideration his feelings or his thoughts or his opinions and not because I think I’m right and he’s wrong…but because I get so scared i just start vomiting at the mouth with my emotions. Continue reading “Mental Health Monday: Over-Explaining”
So…I’m finally sitting down and starting this blog post. Who knew it would be this hard to talk about something I’m so open about and living with on a daily basis. But I guess that’s one-way mental illness seems to work, at least for me that is. It seems to always find a way to make even the simplest task extremely difficult. With this blog post, I wanted to share with you all what my Depression & Anxiety looks like from my point of view. Continue reading “What My Depression & Anxiety Looks Like…”
Ayyyye Yinz Guys and Happy November 1st! Yes…I’m ignoring the fact that my last post was in July…so yeah lol! But a lot has been going on with me, and I mean A LOT. From my love life to my personal life to my work life. I now work from home full time, I got a promotion and a nice little raise, my mental health has come leaps and bounds and while my physical health has taken a turn for the worse(no I’m not dying thankfully) I’m still here thoting and bopping. And speaking of thoting my love life…it’ still nonexistent. But I will hit on all these topics in their own blog post later this month, I promise. Continue reading “November: A New Routine Is Coming…”
Hey Yinz Guys, and Happy Wednesday! So we’ve once again made it to the end of another work week, and if you’re lucky like I am, its Pay Day too. So this friday I wanted to touch on my Summer 2017 Goals. Recently I’ve been so determined to make a ton of lifestyle changes, so I figured writing them down and sharing them on here would how keep me motivated and accountable. So here’s a list of my Summer 17 Goals. These are in no particular order.
- Go to the gym at least 3x a week
- Drink more water
- Get a personal trainer
- Become a better cook
- Go back to school
- New job
- Save at least $500 dollars by the end of the summer
- Get my passport(yes I know I’m slacking)
- Post at least 2x a week on my blog
- Wake up at 6am every morning on the weekdays and 8m on the weekends
- Rad at least 3 books this summer
- Visit Lake Erie at least twice this summer
- Visit family in Florida
- Visit DC
- Visit Philly
- Make it to at least one music festival
- Take my medication everyday
- Journal more
- Write in my prayer journal twice a day(once in the morning and once at night)
- Read 1 bible verse a day
- Make it to at least one Steelers preseason game
- Take one yoga class a week
So that’s it for my Summer 2017 Goals. So far I’ve been doing really well with making it to the gym and drinking more water. I’ll be looking into getting a personal trainer next month and I’ll be headed to the library this weekend to pick up some new books. So what about you, what are some of your summer goals for this year. I would love to read them in the comment section below, I may even borrow some of them for my own lol. As always, thank you so much for the support.
Peace Yinz Guys
****TRIGGER WARNING: I touch on a really personal subject dealing with my mental being and mental health. I briefly talk about suicide and suicidal thoughts. If that is something that may trigger you in any type of way I advise not to read this post.****
Hey Yinz Guys,
Yes…I know, I know…I once again went MIA. But this time it wasn’t just due to a lack of inspiration, and since I like to keep it real on here…basically after ending a fairly new “situationship” with someone I had grown rather attached to and cared about, I had what one would call a mental breakdown and checked myself into the local psychiatric hospital. WHOA WHOA WHOA…wait…WHAT? Yes…I checked myself in after a long night of fighting off suicidal thoughts. Thankfully due to my background in the medical field for the past 4 years or so, I knew the thoughts that I was having weren’t ok and I knew that I needed to seek professional help. So the morning of April 13th, 2017 I checked myself into my former workplace and then spent the next 2 days in a mental hospital. I don’t want to get too much into all of that just yet because honestly, I feel that the whole experience deserves a dedicated post on its own…and right now I just want to keep this post upbeat and just a life update. I do want to make it clear that it wasn’t being dropped that set me on such a downward spiral, more just so the straw that broke the camels back. BUT I PROMISE I WILL DIVE MUCH DEEPER INTO EVERYTHING AND WILL BE BLOGGING ABOUT THE WHOLE EXPERIENCE REALLY SOON. Continue reading “I’m Back…Again (Update Part 1)”
Growing up I use to write nonstop…like every day. Any free time I had I was writing something. Either is was a short story, a chapter story, a poem, letters to God and sometimes letters to my Dad who lived in North Carolina for a few years. It really didn’t matter what I was writing, I just had to write. I specifically remember writing a story that took me days to write, being that I was in grade school at the time most of my writing had to be done after homework was done at an after school program me and my sister attended. I really can’t remember what it was about…but I do remember feeling super attached and determined to write and finish this story.
As I’ve gotten older not only have I gotten away from constantly writing I’ve also lost that intensity or drive to write. Don’t get me wrong my love for writing is still there so is my desire to write…it’s just that as I grew older and went farther in school and especially after the death of my father I lost my inspiration to write I guess. With being forced to write long papers in high school and during the time I did first attend college I lost my drive to read for entertainment and to write. Not until my mid 20’s after surviving 2 different domestic situations I found myself wanting to just write again. But this time my writing were mostly dark and depressing and nothing I ever wanted anyone to see.
That’s also around the time I discovered blogs and blogging. Blogging wasn’t anything at the time and the idea of sharing your thoughts and daily activity on the internet wasn’t a completely new idea to me either…but blogging also wasn’t what it is today. At that time blogging was still genuine and real and most bloggers probably had no idea that 1) they could or would eventually get paid to blog and that 2) it would catch on the way it has. Hell if I knew I would have really stuck with my 1st real blog and stayed consistent with it. But I let life situation derail me and keep me from blogging(sounds familiar huh lol).
But now that I’m older, wiser and really trying to take this blogging thing seriously while also furthering my education and career in the writing/social media/mass media market I’m really in search of my inspiration and gain that passion, love, and desire to write again. I keep hearing from fellow bloggers, friends, family and other loved ones that the key to getting back into the swing of things is to JUST WRITE. Anytime you get a few minutes to yourself…WRITE. When an idea for a blog post pops into your head, don’t trust yourself to remember to blog about it later…WRITE the idea down. And then when you get home set at least an hour aside each day just so that you can focus on WRITING. So yes…I’m short of a hardheaded and a procrastinator and I live off my emotions and allow my emotions and other people to throw me off track but this time I am super duper committed to doing all of these things in the month of April.
I’ve already started, I actually started last week and that’s what resulted in my latest post for #FridayFavorites. And when I started thinking about the idea for this post I immediately grabbed my iPhone 6s+ and started writing in my Google Docs(I really love this app). And we’ll here I am, 15 mins later and I actually have a new blog post for Yinz guys today. BLOOP BLOOP BLOOP…but I also know I can’t become content with this post I have to keep the momentum going and keep writing. So here’s to trying to figure this whole new journey out and getting my mojo back Yinz guys.
When you’re feeling uninspired or feeling like you can’t do something that you normally love to do, how do you get your mojo or inspiration back? Do you step away from it for awhile or do you keep doing it until it comes back to you? I would love to know in the comment section below. Also if you have any advice or tricks please let me know below as well…ALL ADVICE IS WELCOMED & NEEDED. But that’s all for today. And like always thank you so much for checking and reading the blog…it seriously means a lot to me. Here’s to a productive week ahead of us…and yet another short week for me lol.
Peace Yinz Guys!!!
Good Morning Yinz Guys & Happy 1st Day of Spring on this Monday morning to start off the work week right! You prob can’t tell just by reading this…but y’all I’m in such a good mood. There’s a few reasons why but mainly because when I went to bed last night I said “Courtney tomorrow you’re going to have a good day…NO MATTER WHAT. You are going to wake up being thankful and full of gratitude.” And that’s exactly what I did.
I spent this past weekend in bed with a cough, stuffy nose and sore throat. Thankfully by Sunday night I was feeling a lot better, actually the best I have in a few weeks. I’m sure it’s been all the late nights that finally caught up to me. So I really did nothing but lay around, drink some tea and I also finally felt up to washing my hair as well. Another thing I finally got around too was changing my template for the blog(if you haven’t noticed the change then…suprise lol). But since I spent the weekend alone I had a lot of time to think about my future and how much I wanted to accomplish this year. Then I thought about how lucky I am NOW. And even though I may not vocalize it enough I am really THANKFUL for everything that I currently have. But again, like I said…I don’t vocalize it as nearly as much as I do about the things I don’t like that is going on around me. Like not being financially where I want to be, or not enjoying my place of employment. Also lately I’ve been so hard on myself when it comes to my physical appearance. I’ve been lucky enough to have spent the last couple weeks constantly being told how beautiful I am, which normally would have me out in these steeets really feeling myself. But since I turned 32 last month, not only do I not feel like I’m no my best looking self, I’ve also been having a hard time with just responding with a “Thank You” when I’m complimented on my looks. Crazy right? Like here I am meeting someone who has none stop told me how beautiful I am…and I can’t even just say “Thank You”.
Also, when it comes to work, I’m sure my co-worker hates me sometimes lol. Because all it takes is one crappy call to really put me in a bad mood. Then I end up spending the whole shift complaining about EVERYTHING. I’ve even gotten to the point where I hate to even hear myself complaining. So if I’m over my complaining I know she is. So today when I came into work I even made an announcement that today I was going to be extremely positive and full of gratitude for this job that I have. It may not be the job that I wanted but it is not a busy or too stressful of a job which allows me to write and blog in between work. Another thing I’ve noticed is once I start compiling it’s really hard for me to get out of that funk and stop complaining which I also think is a extremely aggravating. So I decided that even if I get frustrated I’m not going to go off on a tangent and allow a little frustration drag me down for the whole day.’
I’m also back to writing in my “Prayer Journal”. When it comes to me and faith I like to treat it as a personal journey. My family on both sides belong to churches and I attended Catholics schools from K-12th grade. So I definitely believe in God and faith…but it might not be in the most traditional way. But there’s one thing I strongly believe in and that’s prayer. So for the past couple of years I’ve kept a prayer journal where I did some bible studying on my own with help of a few books my Grandmother and Aunt from my father’s side got me years ago. (Link books…and explain that you also brought one on your own). I’ve noticed that when I regularly write in it, I feel less anxious, much lighter and a lot calmer. It helps me let go of things and just let them be and trust that things will be alright. Now I’m not the best at always being consistent…but if you’re a long time reader of this blog I’m sure you know this by now lol. But when I am writing in it I like to do it mainly before I go to sleep, and sometimes when I wake up. For it’s the best way to end my day and sometimes start it.
So you’re probably wondering why I’m saying all of this, well because I came across a great quote the other night while scrolling on Pinterest and it triggered me to want to do better when it came to me being thankful and showing more gratitude for the things I do have and stop worrying about what I don’t have…yet. The quote said “It is not happy people who are thankful. It is thankful people who are happy.”. And for some reason that quote just hit me like “WOW”…here I am complaining about having to return to work on Monday and how I hate this or hate that and how unhappy I am cause of these things…when in reality I’m the only one who is in charge of my happiness. And that maybe if I found things to be thankful for I would be a lot happier. So my challenge for this whole week is to make sure I stay happy…no matter what. Now I’m not saying I won’t get upset about something or want to flip a table…I mean cause I’m still human. But I will deal with these situation in a calmer and better manner and not dwell on them and allow them to ruin my whole day. I also challenge you this week to keep a positive mindset and to be thankful for the things you have that make you happy. Also I want to know what are some ways in which you practice thankfulness and gratitude, I would love see what you guys do when you feel like nothing’s going right.
Well that’s all I have for today. Thank you for checking out this #MotivationalMonday post. I hope you all have a great rest of the day and week.
Peace Yinz Guys