***I’m doing this post from my iPhone. I had to get this out, so if it seems rush or if there are any grammar mistakes or misspelled words…that’s why! Lol!***
Today while I’m sitting here at my juror summon…waiting for this long process to be over…I did a little thinking.
I’ve been going thru it with a couple of different personal issues. All of which have been bringing me down spiritually. I’m starting to lose my happiness…and I’m stating to forget what it’s like not to be miserable.
So today…while I sit in this court-house, I’ve decided that I’m going to get rid and let go of a lot of stuff before the summer starts. Somewhat of an emotional “Spring Cleaning”!
First thing on the agenda: Stop all communications with my ex, it’s unhealthy. And well if he won’t commit to me now after dating off and on for the past 7 years…he never will!
Second: Let go off all regret…ALL OF IT!
Third: Stop checking his Twitter…lol(more than 1 person)
Forth: Stop trying to prove a point…shit will happen on it’s on! I have this habit that when I get hurt, dumped etc…I want to show them what they’re missing by shoving all of my glory in their face. And honestly…it’ll will happen without me forcing it.
Fifth: Stop crying at night. Night time is when I do my most crying, worrying and negative thinking. STOP IT!
Sixth and final thing: Stop apologizing for who I am. I’m loud, goofy, confident and I do my own thing. I don’t follow trends and I don’t follow the masses. I’m emotional and I wear my heart on my sleeve. I’m loving and I always want to make people happy. I’m sloppy and lazy. I’m stubborn and I can sometimes be mean. I’m trustworthy and dependable. I’m a shopaholic and I suck at saving money. I’m am ALL of this and more…and I’m NOT SORRY!
*whew* So yeah, that’s it. Once again feels good to get all of this out.
So, what’s your story? How will you be “Spring Cleaning”?